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I: Transference
08:20
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I’ve been running away
And I’ve been followed since you cursed my life
I saw the cancer you brought to our home
I heard the fiend speaking through you
I let it speak to me
And I kept hearing its words for years
It has been growing strong behind my back
It has been waiting for me to become weak
You let it follow me before I had found my peace
And I tried to fight it back, to make it cease
I strived to find my home and it always forced me to leave
How can I make myself believe
No prayers will make it leave
I’ve stopped here to face defeat
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2. |
II: Incarnation
06:54
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I watched them passing their sins down to me in the night
When I was not supposed to feel it taking my soul
I heard them scream for forgiveness and light
When letting the plague take those of their own
It came to me when I was too weak to fight back
It took me when I did not know
I gave up my soul to escape its will
But nothing changed and nothing could be changed
A being of torment
It runs my spirit now
The fight is lost
These years just made it strong
It feeds on my pain
I hear its voice in me
Just turn your back
Let me face it alone
It grows stronger as I fail to walk my path
Soon I’ll be in hell watching it walk this earth
The lord of all cruelty, the master of torture
Just leave and let me face it alone
The fiend inside my mind
It takes me over now
Just leave and let me face it alone
No love can save me
No words can make it go
Just leave and let me face it alone
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3. |
III: Oppression
08:37
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Oh, grand demon of my forebear’s sins
I can feel you waiting for my defeat
They gave too much to bear and told me to pretend
That there is only light
Where no light shines and no life flows
I've dreamed such violent dreams
I’ve seen the world become bleak
The cheer left with shame
It’s turned to choking dust now
Oh, grand bringer of martyrdom
I can hear you coming with a storm
You’ve made my body weak
You’ve made me unable to speak
Can we just stay on our own sides
And spare this body until it dies
There is no path left for you
It’s my time to walk the Earth on my own
Now wish you were blind and never-born
Now wish you were out of life, out of love
Suffer and make others suffer for you
And make yourself want to put an end to it even more
Hate like a thousand arrows
Smashing their shells of glass
I feel the shards cutting my skin
I am so afraid of losing control,
I am so afraid of crossing the final line
There is no path left for you
It’s my time to walk the Earth on my own
It’s my time to walk the Earth on my own
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4. |
IV: Possession
11:26
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I fell asleep and woke up trapped inside a memory
Now he watches you with my eyes and speaks to you with my voice
I am the punishment for things done long ago
Done by those who came before you
I bring wounds inherited from the forbears
And now I will show you what your life is to become
Oh, brightening morning sun,
I curse the light you’ve brought
This worthless world outside for which you want to shine
These useless souls I see
With crippled voice they speak
The words of the slaves of God
The god of hollowness
I am here to deliver pain
The pain of the poisoned souls
I kept it in Hell for you
To bring what you deserve
And I see where you hide
I can reach when you’re safe
I am the blindness you share
The weakness you possess
Let the sun go down forever
I greet the world with rage
Can you stop me before I trespass?
Embodiment of havoc
I envenom their worthless souls
Can you save the one inside?
I am right here beside you. I cannot reach you, neither can I be reached.
Still trapped inside this memory. Not sure where, not sure when.
Your hands dirty with blood
Can’t you remember what something made you do?
Where is your control now?
Tell me how it makes you feel
Can you still go back now
When you’ve left yourself alone,
When you’ve no air to breathe?
Now you have seen your fate,
Now you know what tomorrow brings
I was summoned by their fear
The fear that shall stay with you
You’ll see what I’ll do to them
And you will hear their cries
So helpless you’ve become
And helpless you shall stay
Let the sun go down forever
I greet the world with rage
Can you stop me before I trespass?
Embodiment of havoc
I envenom their worthless souls
Can you save the one inside?
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5. |
V: Defeat
05:15
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I wish that they could hear me
Through walls of this cold memory
I’m living through on and on
Like trees in an endless fall
All I wanted was not to be here
To hide in my world and disappear
To run and not let it find me
To move on and forget.
So, let there be no light
So, let it make no sense
Just let me face my defeat
As the sunlight fades and leaves
I wish this exile meant something
I wish this state led somewhere
As I see it taking my last breath
As it turns my soul to the grave
The helplessness I feel
The words I’m not able to say
The life that was meant to be a failure
I’m living it through, on and on
So, let there be no light
So, let it make no sense
Just let me face my defeat
As the sunlight fades and leaves
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6. |
VI: Becoming
07:43
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He is calling out my name
To take my soul and join him
I’m condemned to stay in here
Or to lose it all in nothingness
I’m about to lose myself
And become the one I hate
Just to see the world through the eyes
The eyes that once were mine
How can I stay here where I can’t move
How can I escape turning into a fiend tearing down everything I loved
Taking the light out of every hope
I’m a slave of a parasite
Brought upon me by their curse
One more soul, one more life
Given to him for a moment of peace
Now I join him in his rage
And become a living plague
Never speaking my mind
Nor getting what my heart desires
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7. |
VII: Compliance
10:57
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I’m surrounded by walls of hate
Transparent and absurd
You cannot reach me here
Pain is all that you will get
I’m taking part in his quest
The retribution for their deeds
I’m not the one I was
Can’t you see that there’s no us
Can’t you see that I am gone
I can’t say what I have to say
My control is lost
It is the way I die
The way I face the end
My control is lost
I have accepted the fate passed upon me
I have accepted my share of suffering
I am watching through the eyes
The eyes that once were mine
Where once was true life
Now lifeless figures dwell
It is the way I die
The way I face the end
My control is lost
And now I pay the price of their deeds
And now I am just a veil of his quest
All I can do is just watch
Just watch everything turn bleak and frail
No promise will be made
No feeling will be shown
Remaining with no voice
Away from the sense of joy
Spared to be enslaved
Locked in deep inside
It’s not I who speaks to you
I am an unholy ghost
Haunting this dying flesh
Remaining with no choice
Waiting for the end
It is the way I die
The way I face the end
My control is lost
And now I pay the price of their deeds
And now I am just a veil of his quest
All I can do is just watch
Just watch everything go bleak and frail
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8. |
VIII: Being
18:22
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I am standing on the ashes of the fight I have lost
In the puddles of blood I spilled for my own path
They show my reflection I haven’t seen for so long
The reflection of what I never wanted to see, never wanted to fight for
The sunlight fades and leaves before my eyes
As I accept the demon who has been fighting for my flesh and soul
The lightning strikes as it breaks my heart into pieces of ice
And I know that this must go on until the very end of mine
Oh Alastor, you vanquished me after all
I saw you coming but never realized the consequence
Oh demon, where are you going to lead me now?
I am all yours, all yours and without sight
And so, I became Alastor himself
As my reflection showed that I had already changed
No love can save me, no words can make it go
Just leave and let me face it alone
Am I still here breathing this poisoned air?
Am I still me, rotting together with this world?
Now every light seems misleading
Now every hope turns to be false
Obsession is the only sign of life
And the reason why I run and hide
I don’t see myself in this world outside
I do not see myself at all
I went where no one can follow me
And so I fade here in a place that no one sees
As the fiend takes over
As the fiend speaks for me
I went where no one can follow me
And now I’m aware of what I must expect
As I it takes me to the edge of my life
As it takes me down
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